Written by Kharisma & Ehwhenkeem
Produced by Elyon
lyrics
Written by Kharisma & Ehwhenkeem
Produced by Elyon
Verse 1
10am and I’m staring at the ceiling
and I’m thinking, what is this chain of emotions that I’ve been feeling
On my soul lately, its my job maybe
the killer of creativity, messing with my ability
To write raps and make songs that connect with the soul
The shadow of my insecurities could swallow me whole
and I know, that I’m sounding kinda melodramatic
You can’t deny that when you want something you just gotta have it
That aside though, I’m often in a position
where I think I don’t deserve anything that I am given
I feel grateful, I really do
But who’s to say that what I get wasn’t actually meant for you
I really hate the way I think, its no wonder I’m lacking confidence
Constantly undermining the meaning of my accomplishments
Honestly I just wish I could give myself more respect
and tell the man in the mirror I deserve what I get
Chorus
Why not try to push
And pull to figure out
There might be something that blocks the road
Maybe if I had a pen and paper
Then I could paint a better picture.
Verse 2
I wish that I could explain it, this mindset is outrageous
I wish that I could shift, adjust and rearrange it
I wish
That I could stop over-thinking everything
Because maybe then, I’d be able to appreciate the little things I’m blessed with
Now tell me, can you relate?
Too scared to enjoy something that could be taken away?
But can you blame me?
How am I to react?
When the same thing has always happened to me in the past?
Now just for once I would like to believe
That something so amazing could be destined for me
to think that
Fate could be someone who was really on my side
Instead of someone who was always gonna break my stride
And I know
I’m feeling really sorry for myself
and all the over-thinking’s detrimental to my health
But, in the midst of it I’m thinking
I could only drown if I continue sinking and so
Chorus
Why not try to push
And pull to figure out
There might be something that blocks the road
Maybe if I had a pen and paper
Then I could paint a better picture.
Verse 3
I met a girl the other day and she was beautiful
No matter what I wanted to say, it felt unsuitable
to speak my mind and tell her how she moved my soul
Until she told me I was somebody she’d like to get to know
Now am I dreaming?
There’s no way that this is happening
The universe is probably trying to have a laugh again
Playing another joke by putting this girl in front of me
Just so I could get to know her and he’ll take her away from me
But what if this is all in my head?
And she genuinely seems to be interested instead?
I know its been a long time and it is so rare
but who’s to say that possibility is not there?
I mean
I like to think this time will be different
Maybe this timeline will lead to a better end
I’m trying to calm this feeling in my chest
Fingers crossed, now I’m just hoping for the best.
I teamed up with one of my favourite beat-makers, whom also happens to be a very dear friend to me. Check out our collaborative album "Mirrors"! Kharisma