Do you know what iit feels like?
When nothing ever feels right?
Acknowledging, that I’m privileged ,for all the things that I have
Yet I’m feeling all the pressure of the little things I lack

Am I greedy? For wanting more than I need?
Pretentious for thinking this life was never suited for me?
Feeling trapped in a routine, searching for the escape route
This is such a maze and I can’t seem to find my way out

I thought that I was done with the blues
Done with always feeling so confused
I thought that I had shown, my capacity to grow
but I’m still in a position where I’ve got nothing to lose

It feels like I haven’t gained a thing from the moment that I started but I know that isn’t true
Countless projects with little progress, you tell me that I’ve grown, but why can’t I see it too?

No wonder the world can feel cold
when the hands of the clock are the only ones you hold
But even they seem, to evade your hands
You reach out to grab and then you start to ask

Why do I care?

I’m often faced with these of questions of my existence
Often find myself wishing
That this pursuit of happiness wasn’t so very difficult
until a set of words break the train of thought running through

Nothing worth having comes easy
So why am I acting like a victim so easily
Thinking I’m the only one pursuing a vision
that is constantly subject to criticism

I’m told that I should pay them no mind
it’s easier said than done when the courage is hard to find
Clinging onto a dream, determined to see it through
I know that I’ve got in me, just wish I could see it too

One night I spoke to the person in my reflection
He told me I wouldn’t make it, he said I needed to face it
He said that I should just quit and that maybe it would be best
If I put this microphone down and just laid my talents to rest

That’s not what everyone says, so why would he tell me that?
When he’s the one that I’m closest to, he’s the one supposed to have my back
Maybe its true, my mom was right when she said
that I overthink it too much, I need to get outside my head

Scary as it is, do you know how it feels,
because I can’t be the only that sees
That even though this world seems cold in light of all its flaws
In our mind is the scariest place to be

All alone with these thoughts, the pessimism is building
Desperatelky searching for the light, I can see it off in the distance
I know that there is still hope, its a chance that I gotta take
Ignoring my darkest thoughts, I just hope it isn’t too late.